I love when Ellen and I sit and write together. I get way more done with her than I do on my own. Just in one sitting today I wrote roughly 1300 words. That is actually a lot for me. The more and more I write, the more I think I might actually finish this one. That makes me so excited I can't speak. It goes faster and faster. I want to get the bulk of its initial writing done before I go away to school because I don't know how much time I'll have to work on it then. Also, I don't know that I'll work as hard without Ellen kicking me in the ass every few days to write more.

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Well, I don't know if this will surprise anyone on here, because I think I've mentioned it before, but sometimes I help out at the Algonquin Township during their Recycled Paint Collection. They take people's old paint and mix it so other people can re-use it instead of throwing it away. They also take used motor oil which, if I'm not mistaken, they use to power their facilities. My job is usually to sort the paint into oils and acrylics, because they do different things with them.

This is a very nice night. Mom and I are sitting on the couch with some stove pot popcorn. She's watching the first season of How I Met Your Mother on DVD for the first time and laughing her ass off. Actually, she's enjoying it even more than I thought she would. I'll have to rent her the rest.

I'm watching Harry Potter the Musical on youtube. It's so amazing. I've been hearing about it on facebook for a little while, but I finally decided to watch it. Here are my thoughts: The actor who plays Harry is hot. The best song is Voldemort's tap dance (I take my foot, my little foot...). When Harry and Ginny kiss, it's hot. Draco's entire persona is hilarious, especially the whole thing with his made up outer space school Pigfarts. I haven't gotten to the end yet, but I already recommend it to everyone.



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I put a more interesting post up earlier this morning, but I haven't done a survey in a while, so...

001. Real name- Kristen Elizabeth Margaret Mohr
002. Nickname(s)- Ten, Molika, Winnie
003. Status - watching Greek, downloading Firefly, thinking about calling Ellen
004. Zodiac sign - Gemini
005. Male or female - female
006. Elementary - Briargate and then SSPP
007. Middle School - SSPP
008. High School - Cary-Grove
010. Hair color - brownish reddish
011. Long or short - pretty long now
012. Loud or Quiet - Quiet more often, but I like to be loud. You can tell when I'm confident/happy in a situation by my volume
013. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans
014. Phone or Camera - camera
015. Health freak - not at all, though I do sometimes snack on apples and carrots
017. Do you have a crush on someone - not really at the moment
019. Piercings - two sets in each ear, not that I often wear them
020. Tattoos - just the one, though I might have plans for one or two more
021. Water or Fire - Water
022. Love of your life or 4 Billion Dollars - the love, I guess, because the money seems easier to earn

FIRSTS:
023. First fear - huge humanoid talking deer that attacked me in my three year old dreams
024. First best friend - Missy, my favorite cousin
025. First award - maybe something from t-ball, I don't know
026. First crush - apparently Bobby Crylen in preschool, if my memory can be trusted
027. First pet - Barney, my dad's old dog, who was 13 when I was born
028. First big vacation - I was in Colorado for my first Christmas
030. First big birthday - The first one, I think, because my family used to have big summer parties. Three birthdays in one week does that.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating - nothing, but I just had a bowl of oatmeal squares cereal
050. Drinking - the milk in my cereal, but that's gone
052. I'm about to - call Ellen, I think
053. Listening to - the audio of Greek - Social Studies
054. Plans for today - I feel like I want to do something smart, like play board games
055. Waiting for - my birthday tomorrow, Firefly to finish downloading

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? - lots
059. Want to get married? Definitely, but I'll be cautious about it because I want to only do it once and it to be for keeps. My parents have been married since three years before I was born and they're my model.
060. Careers in mind - I'd love to work in a publishing house.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes - eyes
070. Shorter or taller? umm, roughly my height, slightly taller...which I guess is short for a guy
072. Romantic or spontaneous - both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms - arms, I guess. I have this thing about boys' hands.
074. Sensitive or loud - more loud, I would say, because I need someone who pushes me
075. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant - trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts - I've never worn either. I can't even imagine what it's like.
081. Ran away from home - Yeah, down the street to the park once.
082. Hold a gun/knife for self defense - a rubber band gun
083. Killed somebody - no
084. Heartbroken - doubt it
085. Been arrested - no
087. Cried when someone died - a couple of times

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself - I try to. I feel like I have to believe in myself if I want others to believe in me.
090. Miracles - yes
091. Love at first sight - in theory
092. Heaven - I don't really know. I'd like to, but I just can't decide.
093. Santa Claus - On some subconscious level, yes.
094. Sex on the first date - not now, but I don't have a moral stance against it
095. Kiss on the first date - perhaps

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now - I'd actually like to be with a group of people all at once. I don't get that very often.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life - not completely, but I'm working on it
099. Do you believe in God - not as a specific entity, necessarily, more as a concept
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people

I had a kind of odd dream last night and I thought it was worth sharing. First, I was in England and getting onto an elevator with three British girls. One was quite large and the other two were fairly tiny. The elevator started to go up as the door was still closing, and I remarked on it, but the girls said that all elevators were like that in England. Then somehow the weight of us got unbalanced and the elevator got thrown off and somehow tilted off the track and shot off into the sky. Somehow we had to control the elevator by balancing ourselves across the cart and leaning when we wanted to go a certain direction. Then we landed outside some guy's house and Charlie (charlieissocoollike) came out dressed and acting like a wild jungle boy. Somehow, like it was a movie or video game, I knew that you weren't supposed to let the wild boy pee on your parachute, so I said, "If you pee on my elevator, I will cut your willy off." Then the wild boy grinned and ran away. Then another Charlie who was dressed normally came up. Reflexively I also threatened him, but he sat down and said, "I'll go away if you give me a kiss." So I did and then he laughed and said, "Wow, I can't believe you fell for that," and ran away laughing. Then we got back in the elevator and let out our parachute and sailed off.

I admit it, I've started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I loved Firefly so much, and people keep saying how good Buffy is. I just had to check it out. I finished season two tonight and I'm really into it. I am locked into this show. Plus, with all the episodes online, it doesn't even seem like it's taking very long because I'm just flipping from one episode to the next. It's fantastic. Except that maybe it's just me, but I find the character of Drusilla madly irritating. Like I want to punch her in the face while simultaneously throwing up irritating. Every time she talks.

Anyway, I'm definitely keeping going with it and once I get to season four I'm going to start on Angel as well, so I can watch them how they're connected.

On an unrelated note, Katy Perry is pretty. Like, really pretty. I assume I'm not the only one who notices this.

Oh, and by the way, I was productive today...

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I love thrift stores. I'm pretty sure that 70% or greater of my books are used. When something's a great find, I get so excited. Sparrow's Nest in particular has probably given me all of my Stephen King. And sometimes I've gotten furniture and appliances too. I've already bought all of my friend's summer birthday presents, just in the one trip today. I'm pretty excited about that, because I was agonizing over that. It's hard to find good presents the longer I'm friends with someone. I feel more and more like I want to put together packages, multi-part gifts. I'm told that my "love language", that is, the way I express affection for people, is through gift giving. Sometimes there's a lot of thought I put into what I give, but I don't always think to explain the whole stories.
I also got a used DDR mat to replace the one my brother ruined by setting his free weights on it years ago. I played for a while earlier and I was surprised how I was able to pick up on it again after just a little warm-up time. I played on workout mode and I've decided to actually record how much exercising I do on it. I did 200 calories on it today. I'm not sure if that's very much or not, but my ankles were starting to feel a little sore and I was getting a little funny because I'm often dehydrated. I never drink as much water as I'm supposed to. I'm trying. I'm better than I used to be. Anyway, I'm going to keep doing it. I have a couple of the DDR games, including one where you can put in your own CDs, so I won't get too bored. I never do anything exercise, but I think I should. It's just that so many of the activities I enjoy include sitting, such as reading, watching movies, and writing.
Speaking of....
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I had to work an 8 hour shift on Friday instead of the 4 that I am used to. I wasn't even supposed to, but someone called off and they asked me if I could. My mood degenerated quickly around the 4 hour mark. Over the course of the 8 hours, my mood went from "How are you?" to "Bother me and I'll break your fucking legs". I am not suited for work in the sales industry.
I feel degeneration in other areas of my life as well. Being out of school, alone. It feels like I spend days and days on nothing. It seems like each month I accomplish less and less, but I don't know how to do more. There's nothing to do in this town and I really don't have that many friends. I don't even know if my friends know how few they really are.
Part of me thinks that next year I might be able to change things with starting a new school, but a larger part of me doubts it. I don't know how to make friends. I don't know how to be sociable and happy outside of the circle of friends I already have. A part of me doesn't even remember how I made friends with them in the first place. Lucky moment, I guess. I don't even think it was anything I did, because I remember that they all talked to me first. I don't know if I know how to talk first.

It's probably two weeks until I find out about Springfield. Sorry, I know I talk about it a lot, but there's a huge inner meaning to it. It's what Springfield means to me that causes me to be unable to think about anything else. It means knowing what will happen next in my future. It means finally getting out of Cary. It means meeting a whole new group of people, potential new friends and new loves. It means knowing whether or not I can be an adult on my own.

All kinds of thoughts run through my mind. Actually, in someone wanted to know how my mind worked, their best literary bet would be somewhere between An Abundance of Katherines and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time.

Yesterday I had a difficult time driving home. The weather was overcast, so I couldn't tell the direction I was going by the shadows, which I had done on my way up, so it threw me off. Then, I started to notice the gas gauge was lower than I thought it should be yet, considering how much I'd used on the way up. I started to get nervous because I was stuck on I88. The needle dipped lower and lower as I nervously scanned the signs for gas. I started shouting, "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" I accidentally passed an exit that had a gas station. The needle dipped lower. Just as I told myself I'd get out at the next exit no matter what, I saw my exit. Then I stopped swearing and started saying, "Please, God, please let me reach a gas station before my car dies." Then, just as the needle was teasing empty, I rolled into the gas station parking lot. Amusingly, my radio started playing "It's Tough to be a God" from El Dorado.